December Woes
1st December. One more month to go till New Years come. 31 Days to look back at the year and remember what has happened. What has gone wrong especially. Work on it. Improve on it. Make sure it doesnt happen again. Make sure that I am a new person. Looking back on this year, it aint that pretty. Major downfalls and backlashes from 'karma', if you can call it that or just plain fated bad luck. Even if most of it was solely based on the end of the era of 'dating and looking' for that right girl. It was as my lecturer put it, 'when it fails - it will never fail gracefully' (yes apparently there is some application of civil engineering in a relationships context)
End of year wrap ups can be summed up into a 3 letter catch phrase.. 'gay'. The terminology in a normal English context would mean homosexual or happy. But in the 'eugene' context - it assumes the role of a situation beyond control and beyond change with doesn't side with the happy-go-lucky aspect of my life. When things go wrong - they can be said to be gay. (a small desperate attempt to use more proficient english because im doing another management subject next year - and to put it bluntly engineering people can write for nuts)
Well from the courts to the 2 major break-ups this year. Kind of can say I've slowly moved on or at least begun to with no signs of ever turning back. Its the better choice for both sides in both cases. Whats the point in trying to change what can never be undone? Whats the point in apologizing when they dont want to talk to you? Whats the point in trying to make them happy - only to get hurt when they just tell you to never talk to them again. Yes, i admit I've done wrong. I got upset very easily. But, Ive learnt my lesson. Ive learn to give alot more than take. Ive learnt alot of things in the past year - (yes including my studies, thankfully) but also in a relationship context. Ever say - if i was only a year wiser everything would have been different? Well i could clearly say that now. But - you only learn from your mistakes - if you dont >___<;; well its your own problem.
Taken off one of the posters in the restaurant, Baba or Boba or smthing like that - a malaysian restaurant. How well you lived life can be summed up into three things. How well you loved. How well you cared. How well you were able to let go. (to a similiar context) Well - if its part of life's brutal lessons - i can say honestly, i pretty much learnt to let go. Letting go alot of things i thought i could never live without. People who mean so much to me, yet it wasent shown back. Its part of growning older and wiser i guess.
Well todays lesson.
'Learn how to let go.'
End of year wrap ups can be summed up into a 3 letter catch phrase.. 'gay'. The terminology in a normal English context would mean homosexual or happy. But in the 'eugene' context - it assumes the role of a situation beyond control and beyond change with doesn't side with the happy-go-lucky aspect of my life. When things go wrong - they can be said to be gay. (a small desperate attempt to use more proficient english because im doing another management subject next year - and to put it bluntly engineering people can write for nuts)
Well from the courts to the 2 major break-ups this year. Kind of can say I've slowly moved on or at least begun to with no signs of ever turning back. Its the better choice for both sides in both cases. Whats the point in trying to change what can never be undone? Whats the point in apologizing when they dont want to talk to you? Whats the point in trying to make them happy - only to get hurt when they just tell you to never talk to them again. Yes, i admit I've done wrong. I got upset very easily. But, Ive learnt my lesson. Ive learn to give alot more than take. Ive learnt alot of things in the past year - (yes including my studies, thankfully) but also in a relationship context. Ever say - if i was only a year wiser everything would have been different? Well i could clearly say that now. But - you only learn from your mistakes - if you dont >___<;; well its your own problem.
Taken off one of the posters in the restaurant, Baba or Boba or smthing like that - a malaysian restaurant. How well you lived life can be summed up into three things. How well you loved. How well you cared. How well you were able to let go. (to a similiar context) Well - if its part of life's brutal lessons - i can say honestly, i pretty much learnt to let go. Letting go alot of things i thought i could never live without. People who mean so much to me, yet it wasent shown back. Its part of growning older and wiser i guess.
Well todays lesson.
'Learn how to let go.'
posted by Gin at 4:47 am
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