gayness..
well.. not literally gayness -_-;; then that would probably make it figuratively. which still doesn't make much sense at all. oh well.
past 7 days has pretty much been for me a living nightmare. so many things has happened. realised so many people have changed. met new people that only want to use you for money. crashed my car - bcos of the stupid car infront that decided to jam his breaks after crossing the traffic light and his break lights didnt work. so it was like i thought he was going to carry on going - then by the time i realized he was at a complete stop it was too late. been drinking almost every night. went to Aloha a new club in kl - met one of the floor managers there. His name is Black -_-;; lolz, he was one of the nicer people that i had met this week. bumped into Jojo - Marc's ex bodyguard who is working for like Aloha's boss. Kinda good memories with him a long time ago. Always good to keep in touch with people like that. Friends at that - nothing more nothing less. No other backstabbing intentions or stuff like that. Met like so many new people - all Aki's friends - Tiffany, Joann, Jian Aun, Eric, Wei Sheng... well those were the people i remember. Then it was kinda refreshing to see like David, Ryan, Hx, Nat, Vic, Ah Weng.. like all those people that was never really close to cos of the langugage barrier - but nonetheless we were still really close. Kinda cool, that you could sit down next to them for hours, and for me not to say a word - still be able to have fun. Well, not that i didnt want to talk - but i could understand more than speak.
Guess the thing that hit me the most. Was the fact that i know that i was doing everything right. At least to me i know it was right. Yes, i learnt alot, not from my last ex but the one before. Yes, ive been single since the restraining order. Yes, i know that im never going to do anything stupid ever again. Yes, i know ive learnt from my mistakes. Yes, i treat everyone with respect. If you need help ill be there. If you need someone to talk to all you have to do is start. Yes, ive learnt as many, if not all, of the things that i should have learnt a year ago. Things that if i did - things would have been so different now. Would have been so much more happier. So much more forfilling. Yet, thats part of life - i guess. Yes, i do regret....
people change.. the world changes....
why is it that im the only one that hasent?
past 7 days has pretty much been for me a living nightmare. so many things has happened. realised so many people have changed. met new people that only want to use you for money. crashed my car - bcos of the stupid car infront that decided to jam his breaks after crossing the traffic light and his break lights didnt work. so it was like i thought he was going to carry on going - then by the time i realized he was at a complete stop it was too late. been drinking almost every night. went to Aloha a new club in kl - met one of the floor managers there. His name is Black -_-;; lolz, he was one of the nicer people that i had met this week. bumped into Jojo - Marc's ex bodyguard who is working for like Aloha's boss. Kinda good memories with him a long time ago. Always good to keep in touch with people like that. Friends at that - nothing more nothing less. No other backstabbing intentions or stuff like that. Met like so many new people - all Aki's friends - Tiffany, Joann, Jian Aun, Eric, Wei Sheng... well those were the people i remember. Then it was kinda refreshing to see like David, Ryan, Hx, Nat, Vic, Ah Weng.. like all those people that was never really close to cos of the langugage barrier - but nonetheless we were still really close. Kinda cool, that you could sit down next to them for hours, and for me not to say a word - still be able to have fun. Well, not that i didnt want to talk - but i could understand more than speak.
Guess the thing that hit me the most. Was the fact that i know that i was doing everything right. At least to me i know it was right. Yes, i learnt alot, not from my last ex but the one before. Yes, ive been single since the restraining order. Yes, i know that im never going to do anything stupid ever again. Yes, i know ive learnt from my mistakes. Yes, i treat everyone with respect. If you need help ill be there. If you need someone to talk to all you have to do is start. Yes, ive learnt as many, if not all, of the things that i should have learnt a year ago. Things that if i did - things would have been so different now. Would have been so much more happier. So much more forfilling. Yet, thats part of life - i guess. Yes, i do regret....
people change.. the world changes....
why is it that im the only one that hasent?
posted by Gin at 7:49 pm
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