February Stars

Its officially the 3rd Day of the CNY. From plently of ang paus to plently of yamchaing with alot of different people. Kinda of making my final rounds to make sure i see as many people as i can before i leave back to Melbourne. Kinda ironic how every year i always leave that to the last week and i kind of realise that there are too many people to see and that i have to skip a few people. Not saying that they mean less than others but its just plain bad planning on my part and im sorry :P Kinda of bittersweet how it seems you always want to be in another place once you've stayed in one place for way too long - but its only at the end when you know you wont be back for a while you realise how much you'll be missing. MAN KL IS STRAIGHT (yes... straight.. apparently im still not allowed to use that 3 letter word meaning happiness or homosexually on the male gender as a result of Ai's stupid crap)

Realised alot of things these past few days especially. Theres no turning back in life, unless you have a timemachine.. which would be pretty cool if u had one let me know and hope you dont mind sharing it with me. Life is full of ups and downs, mistakes and moments you'll never want to forget. Yet, there will always be points in your life where no matter how much you want to turn back that clock - you cant. With each and every crossroad, there will be more decisions to make, more roads to take. (hey.. it rhymes.. yeay!) And with each and every choice you make - life just keeps on stacking on the complexity of the world which was once complete with the mindset that you just want to be happy. That everything else is taken care of for you. That you slowly come out of the coconut shell that you were once in revealing the big bad world. i kinda miss that coconut shell story... or was it that frog in the well that when he jumped out..something something something.. ok my memory aint really functioning at all at the moment but maybe theres a chance some of you might relate to that story and actually know what its about. To the rest, sorry for the absolute nonsense paragraph.

Well, kinda realised that maybe i do need some mayhem in my life. After a while of taking that steady road that i know for certain that nothing bad can happen. Kinda realised i dont have much to talk about nor things to say (which kind of means the same thing so its kind of redundant but i kind of just wanted to say the word redundant cos i havent used it in a long time so its kinda saying that i just want to blab on alot more before i go to bed and i really dont have anything to talk about so im just writing all this crap to make you guys read longer when it doesn't really do anything much but to piss you off cos you dont really know when this crap will end so ya... at least im giving you something to do... right Yin :P ..go read all this bullshit.. its better to sit down and look into a blank screen rather to read all this bullshit and get fustrated cos there aint anything good in this post... got writer's block so sue mee.. come LAH!)

well better be off..trying to make my sleeping time as normal as possible.. before i add 3 hrs... so technically im sleeping at 6am right now... and LORD.... SHOW HEYY HEYYYYYYYY...hahaha... stupid friggin song that im listening to... its damn nice..except that last 2 seconds of SHOWW HEYY HEEYYYYY.. =_=;;... the guy's name is Mr. Children... =_=;; cant really expect much from him can you..HEY BUT THE SONG IS NICE...

well niteezzz

Its been a while...

Its been a while since alot of things has happened. Havent posted in the past few days because procrastination has its way of creeping up on you and making you useless just for a tad bit. There are like so many things to do yet nothing has really been done yet. Been taking a break from the fast lane, taking certain measures of protection in order that nothing bad can happen. I've been driving a whole lot slower, thats one major thing. As that saying goes, its better late than never - saving 5 minutes could end up in you never getting to the place you wanted to go to. As for friends, taking the safe approach - seeing certain friends where i know nothing really can happen. Though there is a chance for everything, whether it be bad or good, just minimizing anything out of the ordinary from happening. Maybe until after chinese new year - maybe the feng shui will chance or the new moon for that month will give me back at least some decent luck.

But as I always said, theres always two ways to look at things. One the one hand you can be sad every moment of every day. On the other, you can be happy with nothing at all. Why can be 'luckiest' person be the most miserable, and the most 'unluckiest' person be so happy? Everything is placed in your own perspective. Some may think somethings are great, other things its totally bad. The fine line between happiness and sadness draws grey as you should realise. That its only the way you look at your life that makes you wonder if you could have been happier or if there is no way you would change anything from happening because it was perfect. Words of advice not really heeded in situations where you should realise it the most. More often that not, happening to even me that the things i say, i should actually do. But thats life. It can be the simpliest of things, or can be the most complicated thing in the world.

Well, things are getting alot more stable at the moment. Somehow, missing that hectic sense of being on your feet - yet enjoying the serenity of it all.

Been so wierd the past few days. Moving towards a more loner approach. Well, apparently its the Yoon Seng and Me playing Dota approach. >_<;; Whats the worse that could happen. Yet, I already know there is alot lacking in that type of life. Maybe some people need time alone.

Drawing close to that semi-state of surrealism - where things have been so stagnant i wonder if anything will change in my life. First things was like a friggin hurricane and now its like the eye of the storm. Abnormally lacking in random bullshit events and seeming like an ever so pleasant change, yet that eerie feeling that the storm is approach is ever so close. Well, hope nothing bad happens to say the least. Well out of the past like 5 months i can say i've done my best in life. Trying not to take the simpliest and easiest way out but the right way out of things. That i've tried to be helpful in anyway possible. From the food i bought from this old lady and trying to give it to a beggar (.. -_-;; no the food being crap wasent the reason why i tried to give it away) to trying to talk to people who have had shit happen to them or just sitting there being with them. Knowing when i needed help the most and seeked it instead of being introverted with my problems which i would normally do. Knowing that you must help yourself first before you can help other people.

Well, kind of getting tired of waiting for everything to fall in place...

Still have no regrets i guess - everything happens for a reason. And if it doesn't it will have a reason one day (or until you forget =_=;;) Just waiting for everything to fit together.

till that day, Ill wait.